Letter to God

Father, you know that I have constantly thanked you for the blessings that you have continually rained upon me. Like water in a sponge, they have saturated my life. Over and over, from the earliest points of my life, you have given me victory - you have given me success. I am sure that there have been points of failure, but sitting here writing I cannot remember them.

I have wondered at times if these successes - these blessings - were a test for me. I have thought specifically about the story that Jesus told regarding the servants and the talents. In the end, we understand that to those whom much is given, much is required. So many times, you have given to me. As I said to Keith earlier today, by giving me success in sports at an early point in my life, I was also given notoriety and a small sense of power amongst my peers, even though it was only in my small community. I think I can say that this test was failed because instead of it being your glory, it was all mine. I continued to chase my fame and this was to the detriment of furthering of your Kingdom.

You continued to be faithful, though, in your blessing. You gave me wonderful parents who encouraged me in the ways I should go, talents in music, a beautiful bride and partner for life, a vocation I could be excited about which provided for a home that I could enjoy. You have blessed us with a beautiful child who brings new discoveries every day. And now, you have given us a community that is interested in seeking out your heart and working with you to further your Kingdom in our communities and around the world.

What can I assume except that you mean all of this for your glory? Could it possibly be that all of these blessings would be meant for me to consume and discard leaving only waste behind? I can't help but think that you have called me to something much larger than myself - that you have even now brought me to be a part of a wonderful group of people - whom together will be your servants, to do your bidding, each with their own talents and blessings that you have so obviously and abundantly given.

God, you know that I am a broken man. This is not a secret to you and there is nothing that I can hide from you. How is it that you can use me? Why would you want to? Somehow, with love being your very nature, you find it right to be merciful and kind to me and this is what draws me back in repentance and under your wing of protection. It is my prayer, then, that you would show me the way that I can be like David - a man after your own heart. I desire to desire you.

God, I look forward to the day that we will be united, but until then, I will strive to be trustworthy with the talents that I have been given. I have been given much and I want to be the servant that of much can be required. I pray fervently that you would make me an instrument of your peace, of your mercy, of your grace. Let me always be...

Yours only,

Ryan

Wow, that was beautiful & I can not imagine it being better put. May God use you to your full potential & bless you & your family.
--Jerrod ( jerollie at sbcglobal dot net ) from USA on 11/2/2005; 6:47:37 PM